{"id":59159,"date":"2017-12-13T12:15:43","date_gmt":"2017-12-13T17:15:43","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.gayfriendschat.com\/socialblog\/i-cannot-visualise-anything-i-close-my-eyes-and-only-see-grey\/"},"modified":"2017-12-13T12:15:43","modified_gmt":"2017-12-13T17:15:43","slug":"i-cannot-visualise-anything-i-close-my-eyes-and-only-see-grey","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.gayfriendschat.com\/socialblog\/i-cannot-visualise-anything-i-close-my-eyes-and-only-see-grey\/","title":{"rendered":"I Cannot Visualise Anything. I Close My Eyes And Only See Grey"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><b>I Cannot Visualise Anything. I Close My Eyes And Only See Grey<\/b><br \/>\n<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/img.huffingtonpost.com\/asset\/5a3146c41600000d12cf0fad.jpeg\" data-caption=\"\" alt=\"\" data-credit=\"Johner Images via Getty Images\" data-portal-copyright=\"Johner Images via Getty Images\" data-provider=\"getty\" data-provider-asset-id=\"763175173\" data-has-syndication-rights=\"true\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/img.huffingtonpost.com\/asset\/5a3004491600002100c4f7f6.jpeg\" data-caption=\"\" alt=\"\" data-credit=\"HuffPost UK\" data-portal-copyright=\"HuffPost UK\" data-provider=\"Other\" data-provider-asset-id=\"205946214\" data-has-syndication-rights=\"false\"><\/p>\n<p>I first became aware of my \u2018condition\u2019 as a small child. I could not get to sleep, and my father or my sister would say, \u201cJust close your eyes, and picture sheep jumping over a wall. Count the sheep. You\u2019ll soon go to sleep\u201d. I tried, but told them I couldn\u2019t see anything when I closed my eyes, just a greyness. Nobody believed me. \u201cDon\u2019t be silly everybody can see pictures when they close their eyes\u201d. This was news to me, and I decided not to mention it again.<\/p>\n<p>I was always getting told off for \u2018telling stories\u2019, making things up. Ironic that I am now a scriptwriter. I never told anybody else about my condition, because, it didn\u2019t appear to affect my life too much. I must admit there were times when I wished that I could close my eyes and think of my late mother\u2019s face. She had passed away when I was six. Apart from that, it was just natural to me.<\/p>\n<p>My family were quite creative. My father was an amateur tenor opera singer. My sister was an accomplished pianist. My father\u2019s idea of family entertainment was for us all to read <em>Julius Caesar<\/em>. I could recite Mark Anthony\u2019s speech when I was about eight.<\/p>\n<p>Because of this background, when my big sister said \u201cI know. Let\u2019s write a musical\u201d, it didn\u2019t occur to me to question her. Of course, I presumed that, being the musician, she would write the songs, but, no, she said she would write the story and I could write the songs.\u00a0<\/p>\n<p><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/img.huffingtonpost.com\/asset\/5a3147d71600004700c4fb4d.jpeg\" data-caption=\"\" alt=\"\" data-credit=\"Kenishirotie via Getty Images\" data-portal-copyright=\"Kenishirotie via Getty Images\" data-provider=\"getty\" data-provider-asset-id=\"485872110\" data-has-syndication-rights=\"true\"><\/p>\n<p>I was too young and innocent to object. I had no knowledge of music theory, so I guessed that I should think them up in my head. After all, that\u2019s how I listened to music most of the time. So, I wrote my first song \u2018<em>Under The Moonlight<\/em>\u2019. It was awful, bit it was a complete song.<\/p>\n<p>My sister soon lost interest, but I had gotten the bug. I even wrote a rough play. It had an opening dream sequence, that I soon realised was too complex for the stage, so I reimagined it as a feature film.<\/p>\n<p>In all these imaginings, I never closed my eyes to visualise anything. I couldn\u2019t. I could write songs with my eyes wide open, and visuals, I just described on paper.<\/p>\n<p>At fifteen, I saw The Beatles for the first time, and knew what I would be doing for the rest of my life.<\/p>\n<p>I started writing songs in earnest, formed a school group; eventually made records, turned professional, toured Europe, and then the band broke up in 1973.\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>I went into the business full time and I am now a music supervisor in the film, industry. I have also written four screenplays.<\/p>\n<p>In none of my creative endeavours have I needed to \u2018visualise\u2019.<\/p>\n<p>The matter of my \u2018condition\u2019 didn\u2019t come up again, until in my thirties, and suffering from major stress, I started seeing a stress therapist.<\/p>\n<p>Now, I was asked to lay on the therapist\u2019s bed, to close my eyes and \u2018Imagine your favourite place, a place where you felt peaceful.\u2019 Once again, I could only see grey clouds. I decided to say nothing, but mentally \u2018spoke\u2019 the details of my favourite place, as if I was narrating a radio programme. Surprisingly, it worked, and I was able to successfully receive stress therapy and eventually deep meditation.<\/p>\n<p>I have no idea if these two things are connected, but I have always had a shocking memory for events in my life. However, I can recall every song I ever wrote, and when I had a hard drive crash on me, I was able to recall in detail four film scripts.<\/p>\n<p>Again, I have no idea if there is any connection, but I have a very high sense of audio, specifically music. I don\u2019t have to close my eyes to \u2018hear\u2019 music. In times of great stress, my coping mechanism is to imagine a symphony orchestra playing.<\/p>\n<p>I dream every night, and have had vivid Technicolor dreams. So what that tells the scientists, I don\u2019t know.<\/p>\n<p>It was with a sense of relief that I discovered that my condition had been researched and give a name \u2013 Aphantasia.\u00a0 Apparently not an illness, more like having blue eyes instead of brown, and I accepted this.<\/p>\n<p>However, a <a title=\"\" class=\"aalmanual\" target=\"_blank\"   href=\"https:\/\/www.flirt4free.com\/live\/girls\/couples\/?mp_code=akftr\">couple<\/a> of weeks ago, on a whim, I Googled \u2018Is there a cure for Aphantasia\u2019.<\/p>\n<p>Not surprisingly the answer was \u2018no\u2019 but then I found a website, where it gave exercises to overcome the condition. I started to do them and within a few attempts, I was able to conjure up colours at will for the first time in my life. Then gradually shapes. Most notably a \u2018wall\u2019 of what looked like bathroom tiles in a vivid blue.\u00a0 I am hopeful.<\/p>\n<p>Would I have swapped my life in music to not have Aphantasia if that was the reason for my musical gift. The answer would be No!<\/p>\n<p><strong><em>Life Less Ordinary<\/em>\u00a0is a weekly blog series from HuffPost UK that showcases weird and wonderful life experiences. If you\u2019ve got something extraordinary to share please email\u00a0<a href=\"mailto:ukblogteam@huffingtonpost.com\" target=\"_hplink\" rel=\"nofollow\" data-unsp-sanitized=\"clean\">ukblogteam@huffingtonpost.com<\/a>\u00a0with LLO in the subject line. To read more from the series, visit\u00a0<a href=\"http:\/\/projects.huffingtonpost.co.uk\/life-less-ordinary\/\" target=\"_hplink\" rel=\"nofollow\" data-unsp-sanitized=\"clean\">our dedicated page.<\/a><\/strong>\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"http:\/\/www.huffingtonpost.co.uk\/entry\/aphantasia-close-eyes-visualisation_uk_5a31403ee4b07ff75aff78b3\" class=\"autohyperlink\">www.huffingtonpost.co.uk\/entry\/aphantasia-close-eyes-visualisation_uk_5a31403ee4b07ff75aff78b3<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I Cannot Visualise Anything. I Close My Eyes And Only See Grey I first became aware of my \u2018condition\u2019 as a small child. I could not get to sleep, and my father or my sister would say, \u201cJust close your eyes, and picture sheep jumping over a wall. Count the sheep. 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