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Writer Erik Patterson and actors Stephen Guarino & Michael Rishwan on giving an audience a ‘Handjob’

Writer Erik Patterson and actors Stephen Guarino & Michael Rishwan on giving an audience a ‘Handjob’

Michael Rishwan and Stephen Culp

Artistic power can hide in unlikely places.

Thus is the case with Handjob, a new play which had its world premiere at the Atwater Village Theatre in Los Angeles. Written by Erik Patterson, and as directed by Chris Fields for the Echo Theater Company, Handjob opens with a titillating situation.  A frustrated writer named Keith (played by Stephen Culp of Gray’s Anatomy) has hired a hot younger man named Eddie (Michael Rishwan, a student of New York’s The New School) to clean his house. The scene plays until two new characters emerge, Kevin (Stephen Guarino of EastSiders) and Bradley (Ryan Nealy of the film Singularities) and act out almost the exact same setup on the exact same set…with no explanation.

What’s really going on here? We’ll not say, other than to mention that Handjob does indeed deal with a handjob (which is presented live on stage), and the blurred lines where reality can intrude on fantasy, and vice versa. Running 90 minutes with no intermission, what begins as a silly, sexy romp evolves into a morally ambiguous, provocative and graphic meditation on gender, race, sexuality and violation.

Handjob opened September 7 and runs through October 28 at the Atwater Village Theatre in Los Angeles. Queerty snagged some time with playwright Patterson and actors Rishwan and Guarino to chat about the power of the piece, subverting an audience’s expectations, and what happens when fights break out in the audience.

Congratulations to you all. This is a far more challenging piece than I expected. It doesn’t have clear or easy answers about who’s right or wrong. So Erik, where did you conceive this?

Erik Patterson: I’ve been working on this play about two years. The Echo read a draft of it a year ago, and we probably did about six readings of it before we had a cast and went into rehearsal. So I’ve been doing a lot of refining and revising over the course of the past year. Before that, I think I started writing about two years ago. It went through various incarnations. The original impulse was I had hired a shirtless cleaner, and was having dinner with a friend of mine. Nothing untoward happened, it was just a man to clean my apartment with his shirt off, which was lovely.

[Laughter]

I was telling the story to my friend, and she said “There’s a play there.” So I wrote. There’s a lot in the play, a lot of current, hot-button issues. All of the things people were talking about like #MeToo—all of that was going on while I was writing. So a lot of that bled into the play and it became this ball of ideas.

I don’t get to talk to many actors who create a role in theatre. How did the part come to each of you?

Stephen Guarino: We had met socially through an actor named Matt McGrath, whom I idolize.

[He turns to Erik]

Maybe you thought I was interesting, but that was the only time we really hung out. Then he sent me a script while I was in New York. I was just reading it frantically, and had to read it a second time. Then I got so excited I called him and said “I’m going to play this. Nobody will do it better than me.” To be fair, some other people had read it, but I was just so excited for the flip that happens [a major plot twist]. To play both sides of that: I feel like that is a fair assessment of how I feel in my own life.

And what about for you, Michael?

Michael Rishwan: I did audition. It came to me through a friend who’s in Gloria, from last season. I’m in film school right now. So I went in to work my chops and my training, and I ended up getting it. It’s been really beautiful. I’m so appreciative to be part of this process and working with these people in the play.

And it’s not easy material.

MR: The writing itself, the mental dexterity you have to have—he’s written such a play that, as an actor, I get so excited to eat his words. But there are so many different ways you can deliver his language You have to be so focused. There’s a speed about it. You have to be intentional with the language. It’s almost like I’m playing on a playground in a way.

SG: It’s a mouthful.

Tamarra Graham, Stephen Guarino, Gloria Ines and Ryan Nealy

That monologue you’re given, yes. But more than that, the nervousness of the character. I’m curious as to your process: how do you get at that every night?

SG: It’s difficult for me because physically. I’m a lounger. So I literally just caffeinate myself for that first scene. I do ecstatic breathing, and I start doing all the ticks so that I’m in a frenzy by the time I enter the scene. I’m also thinking about everyone that’s seeing it, all the people I know, and I get myself to a full nervous state. I say all their names over and over in my head. I feel like a deer in the headlights when I start. I just think you’re going to fail, you’re going to fail…

That’s a hell of a method.

SG: It’s great. The more nervous the funnier the situation. Usually you have to be relaxed and grounded to start a play. This is the opposite.

Do you watch the show every night Erik?

EP: We’re in our third weekend. I haven’t seen every show, but it’s my baby. I like to watch it a lot to see how it grows and changes. So I won’t be watching it quite as much as we go on. But I feel very lucky that the entire cast is brilliant. To see them all bring this play to life is really fun. Every audience too—it’s interesting to hear how the audience will respond from night to night. There are many arguments made in the play, and on some nights I feel like some people are more with one argument and other nights they’re with another. Audiences can be very vocal.

MR: It’s different every single night.

Really?

EP: There was one night where this person in the audience kept sighing very loudly.

[Laughter]

He was very upset about certain things. I was like oh wow, they’re feeling things. So that’s fun to see: the work provoking.

How does it evolve from night to night?

SG: We all keep finding something new in the script every night. Honestly, it’s so verbose that I will hear something new I really need to digest. It’s like I really hear it for the first time. Maybe that actor really leaned into that argument. Like tonight, I really heard a lot of Tamara’s stuff, and I really leaned into it, so then it was easier for me to get excited about what she was saying. I’m not an enthusiastic person–

[Laughter]

I have to fabricate, to a certain degree.

Ryan Nealy and Stephen Guarino

I want to talk about the sex scenes. Obviously, doing sex or nudity on camera is very different from doing it on stage, particularly in an intimate venue. There are all kinds of different laws about what you can show. Michael, you’re not in any dildo scenes.

MR: No!

So Stephen, when you have to do a scene where you actually have to touch a fellow actor’s penis—or a facsimile of it—how do you get to a comfort level where you’re able to do that and do it with people watching?

SG: I probably don’t hold those things too precious in the first place. In fact, I find it sort of titillating. But I will literally just think of things that turn me on in my own experience to try and recreate the shortness of breath, or the blushing, or the embarrassment of a sexual situation. I concentrate on sexual situations that were uneven.

How do you get comfortable with your fellow actors?

SG: I don’t really think about it, which is interesting. I just think they’re doing their thing, I’m doing mine. At no point would I think I have crossed over into their space.

EP: I do feel like, maybe, some of the things that happen in the play, we have a very safe space.

SG: On the spectrum of people who thought intimacy coaching was necessary, I fall on the end of you gotta be f*cking kidding me.

EP: But, at the same time, just from an insider-outsider—I don’t act the scene. I just analyze it. I feel like you two are respectful of one another’s spaces. They worked together. You would touch his knee.

SG: Yeah.

EP: I felt like there was a period of time where they were learning how to touch each other but it’s not crossing lines. You would hold a hand or touch a knee.

SG: I wonder if I would have I would have been less deliberate about that if I knew the other actor was gay. Knowing the other actor and knowing him to be heterosexual, I was very clear. I’d say “I’m going to touch your knee now to block this.” That was until we got the prosthetics.

Tamarra Graham, Stephen Guarino, and Ryan Nealy

That’s smart.

SG: But I wonder if I knew he was gay, I would have been like, I’m just going to touch this…

[Laughter]

But that’s also so meta with the content of the play itself. I was left wondering about the rehearsal period, if any of it was added in.

EP: It was all scripted.

MR: I think Mr. Patterson has written a really beautiful play about the power of connection and the power of disconnection and how necessary it is for people right now. No matter what you look like, no matter how you identify, it’s connection vs. disconnection.

Sure, which can stir up an audience.

EP: There was a moment where we had a talkback after the show. Someone in the audience said something, and Stephen was talking, and there was a little bit of back and forth. Suddenly I felt like the play was happening again.

Wow.

SG: It was a woman. I said something sort of in my bombastic way. And she said “I don’t know if that’s you or the character talking.” And I said “M’am, I’m not a sociopath.”

[Laughter]

EP: That’s a good line!

SG: It was just me. I wasn’t offended, but I was aghast that someone would think I wouldn’t know the difference.

What’s so funny about that is that is what the play is about: the nebulousness of boundaries particularly in a situation where you indulge a fantasy, be it the shirtless guy cleaning house or working on a set. I read a story from an actress recently who described an instance on a set where she played a scene with another actor. She was supposed to have a shocked reaction, so her fellow actor took a water bottle and sprayed water up her skirt into her snatch. So she screamed and reacted, and it might even be the take in the film.

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I mention this because she felt really violated. At the same time, you hear about other actors who will come out naked to shock a fellow actor. Or guys actually hit each other. Or actors really French kiss. So my question is when you’re in a creative space like this, how do you still respect one another’s boundaries?

EP: You talk. There has to be a lot of dialogue. We knew going into this rehearsal process that we were making a play called Handjob with an actual handjob in it. So we didn’t ignore the fact that there’s a handjob in it.

SG: It’s so hilarious. We get audiences because of that. They think it’s going to be a sex show.

EP: Absolutely. I think that the handjob is the Trojan horse to get those people into the theatre, but there’s a whole lot more going on in the play than that. The handjob is a big shiny object. I once saw this gay play—a “sexy” gay play—before I wrote this. It made me so mad because the play wasn’t about anything. I think it thought it was, but it really wasn’t.

Tamarra Graham, Stephen Guarino, Ryan Nealy, Gloria Inez

But tickets sold?

EP: Out the wazoo. But I went to this play, and people were running to go see it, because it was so sexy. Which is great, but I wanted something to go deeper.

SG: I will also say this: I have never been in a situation where I felt anything uncomfortable on that level. I’ve had race issues come up, where certain conversations I had to be taught a different language, and I was embarrassed. But that all happened within a conversation. I have kissed, I have had sex with women—nobody has ever come up to me as a gay man and said “Ok, now you’re going to touch her. Now you’re going to kiss her.” Nobody has ever asked me.

That’s interesting. I talked to Rupert Everett last year, and he has had directors tell him how to touch a woman. And he would say “You know I’m bi, right?”

[Laughter]

SG: I just think nobody has ever been concerned about me as a gay man touching a woman.

Are you ever concerned for your own safety?

SG: I’m trying to think of any time. I remember once I was in character and a person said “Don’t touch me. I’ll get AIDS.” But that person was trying to be funny, and they’re an idiot. I was caught off guard, but not offended. I just thought what a poor choice of words. That’s the only time I can really think of.

That’s probably a good thing for you. The most provocative line in the whole text is in the final scene where one character says “I don’t want to teach you.” What interesting about that is that so much of the plot and meta-plot are about teachable moments and misunderstandings. The laziness isn’t just someone not wanting to listen, it’s someone not wanting to explain their feelings. That just fuels frustration. So, how do we get around that?

EP: One of the things I really want to leave audiences with is that there’s a lot of talking in this play, and not a lot of listening. At the end of the day, we all need to listen more especially to people who represent groups we are not part of. Straight people need to listen to gay people more. White people need to listen to people of color more. There’s a lot of not listening happening.

So what happens the next day?

EP: That’s another play. I don’t have an answer for that.

Stephen Culp and Michael Rishwan

Michael, what do you think? Your character closes out the play with his exit.

MR: I don’t even know the answer to that question. It’s the notion of connection vs. disconnection. I don’t know if Eddie is going to write stuff, or have second thoughts. I leave that open to the audience.

In the same way as Mamet’s Oleanna, the audience ends up projecting their own experiences onto the characters and ultimately has to ask: What am I seeing here? It’s about perception.

EP: I don’t know what they all go through the next day, but I hope that the next day the audience is still thinking and talking about all these things.

All photos by Darrett Sanders.

Handjob, presented by the Echo Theatre Company, runs until to Oct. 28 at the Atwater Village Theatre in Los Angeles.

 

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#BiWeek or Not, bi+ people like me need representation

#BiWeek or Not, bi+ people like me need representation

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I always knew I was queer, but it took me a long time to realize I was bisexual. I was growing up in the mid-2000s in a very small town in the Midwest, with no LGBTQ people around me that I knew of. At that point, bisexuality was even more invisible than today (when we still struggle to be fully seen); the only connotation I had was some sweeps weeks kisses where everyone ended up straight in the end, and episodes of MTV’s Undressed which was solely about hooking up at college. Even in these cases, the actual word “bisexual” was primarily sidestepped and the concept was not even explored – you were either straight or gay. Not exactly relatable or helpful to my teen and tween-age self.

Enter the phrase “girl crush” taking over language and every girl I knew talking about girls they had quote-unquote crushes on, but who were also happily dating and talking about boys. It wasn’t until later in high school that I started to realize they meant “I want to be like her” and I meant “I want to kiss her.” Of course, several of my close friends have also since come out, so maybe we did all mean it the same way. Then, I went off to college and Katy Perry’s “I Kissed A Girl” came out. This spurred a whole resurgence of the tired stereotypes about bisexualsbi women in this case – from ‘it’s a phase’ to ‘girls only kiss girls for the attention of men at parties.’

It wasn’t until my last year of college when I started watching Grey’s Anatomy and saw Callie Torres (Sara Ramirez) that I really started to feel like I was finding someone I could see bits of myself in. Callie was killing it in every way – she was working towards the top of her field, she had a successful and loving relationship, she was managing to co-parent with her ex, she had friends supporting her, AND she was out as bisexual. I was shook.

Callie remains cited as the longest running LGBTQ character on television  (11 seasons, 239 episodes), though she departed the series in 2016. She opened the doors for a wave of outstanding bi and pansexual characters who came after her – everyone from Darryl on Crazy Ex-Girlfriend (who literally sang the definitive song about being bi), Magnus on Shadowhunters, Abby on Abby’s, David on Schitt’s Creek, Taylor on Billions, Waverly on Wynonna Earp, to Rosa on Brooklyn Nine-Nine.

While many of these characters had outstanding storylines, several also never use the word bisexual. When Rosa (played by out bi actress Stephanie Beatriz) came out in a two-storyline in Brooklyn Nine-Nine‘s 99th and 100th episodes, fans were excited to hear her use the word “bisexual” multiple times. This was because Beatriz worked with the writers to craft that story, and knew the importance of the moment. “The first time I heard that word in media and saw characters that were bi — and they were very few and far between — it was that same feeling of ‘that’s me.’ And I think that’s what we’re all doing in the world; we’re trying to look around and say ‘that’s me,’ and connect with other people who we feel are like us,” Beatriz said.

We know that bisexual+ (including bisexual, pansexual, fluid) people make up the majority of the LGB community at 52 percent, and yet we are less likely to be out than gay and lesbian people due to some of the misguided negative ideas people have about bisexuality (28 percent of bi people versus 71 percent of gays and lesbians). Bisexual people may also experience biphobia from straight people AND from gay and lesbian people. This leads to higher levels of minority stress for bi people, including being more likely to have substance abuse issues, higher rates of intimate partner violence, and diagnosis of mood disorders including anxiety and depression.

Media – and entertainment media in particular, which connects with people in such a personal way – is the best vehicle with the biggest reach we have to combat some of those negative stereotypes about bisexuals and create a world where more bi+ people feel safe and confident to come out. Our most recent Where We Are on TV study found a jump in bisexual characters on television, but those characters (the good, bad, and middling) still only represent 27 percent of all LGBTQ characters. That is far from reality, and there is still work to be done to tell more and a wider variety of bisexual stories. And more nuanced and humanizing bisexual+ stories. The audience is there: this was made evident by the overwhelming positive reaction to this summer’s all bisexual+ edition of MTV’s dating reality series Are You The One? – and we are ready to support your projects.

Like Callie said, “It’s called LGBTQ for a reason. There’s a B in there.” And it means badass, and bisexual. For me, finding the word “bisexual” lead to finding a community, a career that I had no idea existed, and a biological and chosen family to support me in everything I am. I hope the wave of characters we’ve seen in recent years – and those to come – will be able to inspire and help the kids who are the kid I was.

Megan Townsend (@meg_townsend) is GLAAD’s Director of Entertainment Research & Analysis.

About BiWeek

From September 16-23, join GLAAD, the Bisexual Resource Center, and Still Bisexual in recognizing the bisexual+ community for Bisexual+ Awareness Week, culminating in Celebrate Bisexuality+ Day on September 23.

Co-founded by GLAAD and BiNet USA, Bisexual+ Awareness Week seeks to accelerate acceptance of the bi+ (pansexual, fluid, no label, queer, etc.) community. #BiWeek draws attention to the experiences, while also celebrating the resiliency of, the bisexual+ community. Starting this year, Bisexual+ Awareness Week will take place every September 16th – 23rd. 

Throughout #BiWeek, allies and bi+ people learn about the history, culture, community, and current policy priorities of bi+ communities.

This piece is part of GLAAD’s content supporting #BiWeek, recognized annually from September 16-23. Learn more at glaad.org/biweek.

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Rupert Goold & Renee Zellweger on gay iconhood, star pressure, and tackling a legend in ‘Judy’

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Director Rupert Goold and star Renee Zellweger on set. Photo by David Hindley.

Few icons command the kind of solemn respect of the queer community like Judy Garland. Her life and artistic legacy remain one of the great Hollywood stories–one so complex and varied, few filmmakers or performers have dared try to retell it.

Now Renee Zellweger and Rupert Goold have done just that. Judy, the long-awaited biopic of Judy Garland opens in cinemas September 27. Based on Peter Quilter’s play End of the Rainbow, it focuses on Garland’s disastrous London concert series at “Talk of the Town.”

We meet director and theatre veteran Goold in the hallway of the Omni Toronto, a posh hotel employed as an interview space during the Toronto International Film Festival. Tan and trim, he wears jeans and an untucked flannel shirt he greets us with a smile. He escorts us into a room where Zellweger awaits. Overjoyed, she leaps into Goold’s arms with a squeal upon sight of him.

Zellweger welcomes us as we sit down across from her at the table, her Texas twang everpresent in her speech. She wears a sweater and drawstring pants, yet still manages to radiate the etherial beauty that helped make her a star.

As part of the Toronto International Film Festival, Zellweger and Goold allotted us a few minutes to chat about Judy, the legend, and how to attract a queer following.

So which one of you was first attached to the project?

RG: We sort of tiptoed together really. Through so much of the process, now when I look back on it, I can’t quite remember decision points. I remember getting my script and meeting our lovely, lovely producer who’s very smiley called David.

David Livingston?

RZ: Yes.

RG: Yeah, he’s a wonderful facilitator of relationships and a lovely writer as well. It sort of all grew together at the same time. So I don’t remember a soft point.

[Laughter]

RZ: I can’t remember.

RG: You might have been thinking about playing it for ages…

RZ: No…

RG: No?

RZ: No! No way!

[Laughter]

Photo by David Hindley

Well then what drew both of you to the Garland story? And how did you come to trust one another to the point where you felt comfortable working together?

RG: I’m sure Renee would say this about me, but to a degree, it’s a leap of faith. I think that film is often led by performances, but this is so much the icon and the performance, and that’s a huge risk for Renee and Pete’s [producer Pete Shailaimon] investment for a director to feel he can honor. Of course you can’t know, can you, whether you’re going to get there. You just think can we share a language so we can communicate. That’s the starting point. Is it going to be fun? Because if you fail and it’s still a happy process, that’s still enriching. If you fail and it’s miserable…you don’t want to do that.

[Laughter]

Honestly…

[He turns to Renee]

I don’t know you feel, I sort of feel that I would rather fail and have an incredibly rich process than to succeed in a hollow process.

RZ: Yes.

RG: I think I felt like I guess the diva, the make-up, the extraordinary showmanship diva that is kind of associated with a certain vision of Garland—and not unlinked to some important ideas about drag culture as well—I felt there needs to be an element of that. But there’s a real woman in there. I felt like Renee was going to be that really well. It wouldn’t be a grand Guignol sort of performance.

So Renee, what made you want to play Garland? That’s stepping into some big ruby slippers.

[Laughter]

Wait, I can’t be the first one to make that joke?

RZ: You are.

RG: You are.

RZ: It’s good. Yeah. What appealed to me, apart from the obvious adoration and admiration of her, was why Rupert and David wanted to make the film, and their intention in making the film. I love how he breaks apart the material and looks for subtext in the story in order to conjure an emotional experience. That I love. And it’s interesting how he always wants to put action with the emotion in order to make it palpable. Just the way he described his process…that to me—listen to him talk about characters or story or human experience. He’s a very thoughtful person and a very intelligent person. That was apparent from the start. As he mentioned before, we could have failed at this, but wouldn’t be an extraordinary experience to try?

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I’m glad you mention drag culture. That was a big concern I, and I know others, had going into the film. Judy Garland has been a drag icon for a thousand years. Countless drag queens have done Garland. How do you make sure you don’t turn into one of them?

[Renee points at Rupert]

Really?

RZ: Yeah. He was very clear from the beginning that he didn’t want an impersonation.

Right.

RZ: Also, the focus wasn’t on the drama of the performing icon, but the human behind the persona. The private person filling in the blanks between what you read in the public record and what you might assume a life might be like. Given her circumstances, and considering her circumstances.

RG: Yeah. This is awkward territory, but we had a scene we shot where she hears someone singing “Get Happy” and goes into a club and sees a drag act performing. It was a weird meta scene that was very beautiful, well performed by Renee and the drag artists we were working with. But it was impossible to have two climaxes in the film. I have a lot of respect, I think for the LGBTQ community, particularly gay men. I think there are complex feelings about the “Friends of Dorothy” thing which is quite generational.

Photo by David Hindley

True. It is.

RG: Obviously, her relationship with Stonewall and everything that came after Garland was very essential to men of a certain period. Some of the gay men I work with, who are maybe younger than me, writers, actors…in some way they have a problematic relationship to Garland.

How’s that?

RG: I guess they associate…some of them worry about an association with a certain, over-emotive, suffering diva is compromising or marginalizing of their own ability to be in the wider world with respect. And yet equally…one of the reasons I was really drawn to the material actually is a lesbian singer right now who’s writing a musical—she’s only 28 or 29 and a proper badass, which is great. She sent me the “By Myself” TV performance and said it was the greatest performance she’d ever seen a woman give. I was like this is weird. You’re 29, come from an indie background, and for you Garland is an important feminist icon? It’s great.

One thing the film really focuses on is her anxiety, which was exacerbated by her demons of course. Being her is so much pressure. And you, Renee, know about this. An Academy Award, one of the biggest stars in the world for a good decade. One of the most beautiful women. One of the most recognizable faces. That’s a great honor, but it’s enormous pressure. How did you cope with that? And what is it about Garland that made fame so terrifying to her?

RZ: I don’t pay attention to that part of it. I’m not aware of it until I’m in this environment and we’re talking about it, frankly. I feed my dogs in the morning. They need injections. They need pills. I have to give them shots and baths and medications and we go for long walks. I have to vacuum the dust bunnies. I have family things. The septic system gets broken. I have to go to the grocery store. You know what I mean?

It’s your humanity, just day to day life?

RZ: Yes. I have to put gas in the car. I have to return emails. I need to call my mother. So the rest of it…I don’t know. I wear an ugly hat because I don’t feel like doing my hair and it keeps the sun off. Driving in Los Angeles is like being in a mobile tanning bed. That’s existence for me.

Renee Zellweger with Finn Whitrock. Photo by David Hindley

So what is it about Garland that existence was so terrifying and taxing? She was someone that, just the pressure of walking on stage and the impulse is to say “Why is this hard? You’re Judy?”

RZ: Well that’s different. We’re talking about a point in her career where she wasn’t sure she could access her instrument to its full capacity as she had in the past. She didn’t want to disappoint people. For decades, she performed at a level that was above and beyond what people experienced in live performance ever before. She’s one in a million years. What if she can’t do that? What does it mean in terms of her identity? And in terms of her bliss and her ability to take care of herself financially? Or her children? There are big implications here. In terms of appearance and molding yourself into a particular beauty paradigm so you’re able to work in the first place, and you’re at the mercy of what studio bosses have determined is marketable, you probably don’t feel like you have much choice. It’s tit for tat. What that means is you’re going to eat soup and not cake.

The weight, obviously, we all know she struggled with because she was so tiny. I have to say also, when it comes to the self-image, I’m glad you guys included the bit about L.B. Mayer touching her inappropriately. That was something she always talked about, but nobody else would ever repeat the story. Nobody would talk about it, even 50 years later. Was that a conscious choice? And why does this keep happening?

RG: We’re all vulnerable in this industry, where you have a huge power balance. Garland, in particular, was not a remarkable looking little girl and she was made a superstar. When you have that power balance, of course, there’s going to be exploitation of that. I think things have improved in the past couple of years, particularly in that they’re addressed more.

Yes.

RG: That scene, I can’t remember exactly when the #MeToo movement started, or where we are in relation to the script’s development. That material we were already working on. I was concerned that we would look opportune; I didn’t want to look like we had crowbarred it in. When Tom and I were talking about the script and the moment, the Faustian pact she makes and understanding the transgression and the punishment. It was a tricky one, because as you say, there’s no hard and fast evidence as is true of much of her life. I read one thing about her getting slapped in the face by [Victor Fleming] on The Wizard of Oz.

That is true, apparently.

RG: Our job is not to be documentary-like. That scene, it’s meant to be creepy as hell where you don’t quite know where the dynamic is. The uncertainty is what makes it disturbing. In some way—grotesque as this is to say—if you know what’s happened to you, you can process that in some kind of way. Therapy, forgiveness, retribution, whatever it may be. But if you don’t quite know, and we’ve all been there, in a gray area where you feel uncomfortable but you can’t quite put your finger on what.

RZ: Yes.

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And that’s just another sign of how powerless she was.

RZ: “You have no autonomy.”

RG: There’s something very profound about The Wizard of Oz being our collective childhood. There’s something very innocent, very pure in there, but also something inappropriately adult. Whatever that was, we think of her as a perpetual child, but she was never allowed to be a child.

Now last question. Renee, you have a big gay following. You always have. I don’t know how aware of this you are, but Bridget Jones and Roxie Hart…

RZ: I thought you were talking about my Rolodex!

[Laughter]

I’d love to know who’s in it.

RZ: I was like you are correct.

[Laughter]

Yes sir!

So why do we like you so much?

RZ: Do I have to give why? Can’t I just say “Yay?”

[Laughter]

I couldn’t begin to break that down. But I’m grateful. And I’m glad.

RG: When you think about it…tell me what you think of this. Judy was really funny. Renee is really funny. There’s something about humor. I don’t want to say it’s a point of power, but…

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That’s true in that Garland wasn’t afraid to make fun of herself, or her demons. And I don’t think you make fun of your demons Renee…

RZ: All day long.

[Laughter]

I’d love to know what those are.

RZ: I’m closing the door.

You do have a great sense of humor though.

RZ: Can you elaborate on that?

Well, you’re a beautiful, intelligent woman. In all seriousness, I think it’s easy to be pretty. You see people of all genders who are pretty to look at, but they’re boring as hell. It’s another thing to be beautiful and distinct and have something under that which commands attention. You have to be worth watching.

RZ: You can stay all day.

Judy opens in theatres September 27.

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Watch: New Orleans goes to WorldPride

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